OUCH

“Ouch!” said my mom.
That is the same word I would hear my mother say everyday for seven months. The reason that my mom would say ouch everyday was something we did not know. The key term there is was, but now we do. It all started with me joining track, now I am an athletic person to some extent, and I worked hard at track, I worked through the pain in my shins and all the other kinks I had.
“Mom, I want to quit track” said me.
“Son, I know you can do it. Just work through the pain, but if you don’t want to do it anymore that’s okay with me” said my mom.
Now, as the track season came to an end, I was amazed that I made it that far, I realized that I was going to compete in the Big tournament, which to me is a big deal because I am normally not in big events.
“Mom I am going to the big tournament!!” I said
“Oh Son, I am so happy for you!” said my mother to me
Now when that day came I was so excited and I couldn’t wait, but as we sluggishly made our way to a town the weather became worse. It wasn’t the Perfect Storm or anything, but it was just raining and that puts a damper on any sporting event. When the big event was over, I went over and sat with my parents while everybody else packed up. My dad said that my moms’ pelvis was hurting her. So after they gave me a hug and kiss good bye, I went and got on the bus to go back.

As the summer months came my moms’ side pain didn’t go away. She said it was really hurting her bad, but the stubborn lady she was, she wouldn’t go to the doctor. She had been a nurse for thirty-three years, so she knew how to make people better. The pain eventually became so bad that she had to go to the doctor. They took x-rays and he gave her some pills and the regular stuff. Well, the doctor’s recommendations of what to do did not help. He gave my mom a drug that she was allergic to, but we did not know it. That made things even worse. Well the next Monday at 2 A.M. We had to take my mom to hospital. She was severely low on all her vitals. They kept her in the hospital for four days. On the third day, the most horrible news was delivered to us. They found a tumor in my mom’s right lung.
“Well how bad is it Doctor?” my mom asked

That was one of the many questions that my mom would ask over the course of the next three months. They would be asked right at the perfect moment, when they were supposed to be asked. About halfway through September, my mom went down to a city for radiation. That was another thing added to her pain and that made her say “ouch” even more than before. I sat there wondering how she really felt, because my mom was the strongest woman I have ever know. She never cried while having me, she never asked “why me?”” Why do I have to have cancer?” No, she never asked that. Also for her to say ouch would be like me slamming my hand in a car door, it would take that much pain to get her to say ouch. Also every night, together, we would pray. That made her so happy, and she would pray everyday of her life and never, ever, think about herself, it was always everybody, but her. It was never my mom.
“Doug, can we pray?” my mom would say to my dad
“Why, yes, Honey of course we can,” my dad replied.
“Can we pray not for me and my cancer, but for a cure for diabetes for my son-in-law?” said my mom.
Well that brought me, and everybody that heard that, to tears. Now that her radiation was over with it was time for chemo. I found it so hard to be home alone, because normally I was never left home alone, not for any reason. It was not because my parents thought I was going to be bad, but just because they loved me so much that they did not want me to be home alone. My mom only had about three treatments. That was all that was needed to prove the inevitable.
Eventually, in the process of chemo, they had to take x-rays.
They said “Comeback in two weeks and we’ll tell you what’s happened and all of the other information”. When that day came around, it was a schooldays and, of course, my mom did not want me to miss school. The day seemed so long to me, but finally it was over and I went home. I went home and sat and did home work and at about 5:30 my parents came home. My dad wheeled my mom into the living room on one of our roller chairs, because she couldn’t walk in fear of her bones breaking.
He said, “Son we didn’t get any good news today.”
As he stared at me with tears in his eyes he said “Jesse the cancer has spread all over.”
Now I looked at my mom and she said
“It’s okay son, Moms going to get better. She’ll beat this, don’t worry.”
Well by the end of the day I think I cried every tear out that I could. From there it all went down hill. She started to get cold all the time. Then she got so bad that my dad had to stay home using his sick leave, that his job said he could do, but they changed that on him. We had to hire a lady that would come and sit with mom. She was nice but, she disappointed us in the end. On a Wednesday I came home and I saw a nurse that my mom had know from before. She had come out unexpectedly to check on Mom. She took one look at Mom and called Dad and told him to get out to the house right away. Then she went and got all her stuff and came back out and put my Mom on medicine and stuff like that.
My dad came up to me and said,
“Jesse mom’s dying.”
When I heard those words my whole life fell apart. I couldn’t believe it, the person I was closest to was going to leave me. I went in and kneeled there next to her and she couldn’t talk, but she could hear us. My family rushed home. When my second step-sister got here, she said, “Mom its ok I’m here now”
My Moms’ eyes opened up for the first time that day. She ended up staying with us until the next day. The hardest thing in my life was to tell my mom, “Mom it’s ok. You can go now. Dad and I will be ok.” I said with my eyes bloodshot red from all the crying that I had done. After that Father came and gave my mom the final rights for the third time. This hardly ever happens. After that she stayed with us. She did say that she loved me with the little bit of strength she had. Well then at 3:11PM on Thursday, November 18, my mom passed away into the land of no more suffering, a joyous place where she will never say the word ouch again.

I had to edit the towns and other info for saftey.

Sorry, Ozzy. I had no clue! It sounds very fictional, but I believe.

Thanks man, there is not one lie in their. Only a very wrong and cold hearted person can make a thing up like this. That is moraly wrong no matter what way you put it. THanks for reading it. It's all real, I handed this in as an assignment for English. Also sent it to all my friends and family.

Ozzy, my condolences.

I have been there, but not with my mom. Take good care of yourself and your family. God Bless.

Im so sorry, thats really sad :S

Sorry to hear about your loss...I hope Everything goes well with you and your family in your times of grief...
Sincerily,
Freedom

Thank you all for your support. This is the main reason why I am trying to be a better person. I want to live as my mother did full of life and love. I am doing much beter, the worst cuss word I have said is, beaver dam,( get it?) Well I am being nicer so when I do get the full game please exceppt me in games and stuff.

Sorry for your loss ozzy.

Thanks you Legendary. Thanks for being so nice to me. You all are very nice, I should have not been a jerk before I really didn't reaizle how much you guys know about eachother. I guess it's like one big family isn't it? Thats the way I feel and I hope you all will accept me and forgive me form my wrong-doings.

Sorry, dude.

Dear Ozzy,
I know the pain you went through and are still going through ! My grandmother past away just a little over a year ago to Cancer for the 4 time ! My grandmother was my mother due to family problems ! If there is anything I can do to help let me know ! Check your email ! B)

Ozzy,

You have my sympathy and thanks for sharing your story. I don't know if it helps any or not , but know that many people have had to experience the loss of a parent "too soon".

I lost my Dad to lung cancer when I was 18. His story was very similar to your mother's.

I'm 34 now and am now a parent and can only now imagine the situation from both sides.

My heart goes out to ya...

Sniper

Man, Ozzy, just hearing that brought tears to my eyes, I lost my grandpa about a year ago, I still can't say his name without crying, I'll be praying for you, I hope you and your Dad will be safe. God Bless and Take Care. May God Be With You.
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Hey thanks all of you you have been so caring to me.
@Mad: I am sorry that you have to deal with that man, it was the hardest think to write that paper, but I felt a whole lot better after I wrote it becasue I just kinda clammed up and didn't talk about it.

@ Sniper: I am sorry about your father, I hope you and your family will be ok.

@Lone: Thanks man that email really nice. Thanks man. I am so srry for what you had to deal with.

@ Rabben: I was hoping this might have helped you feel better. I wanted you to fell that you aren't alone, but at the same time I realize that there are so many that have these kinds of situatoins in life.

@ All: I will keep all of you in my prayers. Would you also keep my friend in your prayers, she has anorexia and she needs all of your prayers (she's stuborn) but shes getting better. Also for those of you that have lost a grandparent. I know what your going through, but I can not say I know how you feel because I am not you. I know becasue I also have lost a grandmother, this was on December !5 2004. What a great way to end 04 huh. Well God has helped me through it a lot. ALso my friends(including my cat ,=) So if any of you need to talk about anything, I am here for you. I am a mature person, my teachers say that I am mature years beyond my age but still have to act stupid once and a while right?)

For something lighter: I took my reading apptitude test and it said that I haev a reading level of a 12th grader!! I am only a 9th grader!!! My dad was so happy to here that. So where my sisters. I am so happpy I figured that they would probably recommend The Cat In The Hat for me. LOl but It all worked out! Well I better go play some TT! See ya there.

Ozzy (SF)

Sorry I was a jerk today in Warfare's server....I had no idea....I'm really sorry about that.....I dont know exactly how that feels but my grandfather died when I was two...I feel really sorry for you ozzy....Hope you can get over this....
Sincerely,
Zolt

@Zolt: It's ok, I forgive you. I am sorry that your grandfather died. Thank you so much. I don't think I can get "over" it, but I will get through it!

Hey man. That's a sad thing. Very sad. I really can't imagine it. I've never had a loss in my family, but I soon will. This will probably be a prelude to what it might feel like for me to lose a loved one. I'm glad you put that man, in spite of all this death in TT, you really put love into the site. You really let out the sympatheticness in ThinkTanks and I don't think anyone could have done better. You really must have put a lot of effert into that post, and I'm glad you reminded us to treat everyone as if they were about to die. Always take care of them, as they do to you. So I think I speak for all of us when I say "Thanks for the post." And once again I say that I don't think anyone could have described it better than you Ozzy.

~Gaul

I am very sad taht your mother died! :S I hope you and your family are well. I experianced my uncles death :S :S ! I know how you feel!
eagle

Thanks Eagle. I am sorry about your uncle passing away.

My grandfather passed away March 3rd, 2002. I remember the exact date.

Im sorry for that ozz.My great Grandma passed away at the age of 91. I was so sad.I cant imagine the pain your going through....... :[ :[ :S :S :( :(

Thanks you both, I am so sorry to hear about the losses you both have been through. I hope you guys are going to be ok. I'll be ok, I have my faith and friends and family and the NICE people at TT. (TANTY can burn :'( Well se yall on TT

I have to admit to you guys but before I do I am sorry I feel this way, I just dont feel sad for yo I for some reason dont seem to feel sadness or grief for many people let alone myself for soem reason my emotions just arent their, when something god happen I dont feel happy, something sad happens I tend to not feel sad, the one emotin I have is anger and I have alot of that, I get mad easy at least sometimes, sorry I dont feel sorry I try to but I just cant feel sorry.

Vicious its ok man. Don't worrie about it. Some people are just that way. Lets just say I know, ok I know that you "feel" sad for me just not emotionaly.(If im wrong correct me, sorry if I ofend you.) I know you don't mean you didn't mean to hurt my feelings, I wont take it as if you had. We coo and I would like to keep it like that. Don't let this keep us from being cool ok man. It's not the worst thing. I wish to keep coo with all of you. You all are different and are very cool. Thanks a lot for letting me be accepted in TT even though my past with you guys was bad. I will never do it again. I've gained so much by changing, so I wont ever go back to the way I was. I give you my word. Now many of you think that my word is nothing, but in real life my word is just that. I have had people tell me their depest secrets, just becasue they trusted no one else and really needed to talk about it. I have nevr told anybody anything that was personal about another person. Never, that is very wrong. Well I have to go now. Also I am in school during the days so that is why I don't do all this tuff till at night when I get home from school. But I can get on TT at school so, just blocked PTT for some reason. So I'kll talk to you all later! See ya on TT!

I have school too I am 14 you mean you actually downloaded TT to school computer?

Email me and then I'll reply and tell you about it ok. It's a complicated deal because nobody is in the same situation that I am... Well that I know of

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Sorry for calling it fictional, but "Ouch!" just sounds a bit funny... But still, sorry again.

If your sorry about it why did u say it in the first place?

I have deepest sorrow for your loss. God Bless....

I have an Uncle about to die...he has Cancer...I hope he makes it.... :[

@ Treavis: Thanks man.

@ Mad: Man I am so sorry, I'll pray for your uncle tonight. OK, God be with him and you and your family at this time. I am so sorry again man.

You take after your mom dont you ozzy.

Yes I do. I try she never did anything wrong. Forgave everyone. SHe had a really bad past devorice. The guy took awa her kids, wasn't even court ordered. She forgave him for it. That shows alot of character. I hope I can be like her. I really do, she already has passed alot on to me! SO tahts makes me feel good. :)

Wow. They say that you are never too old to lose a parent and they are right. We found out that my dad is dying at the beginning of the year and while I am 43, I think it's much too early. The best way I can handle it is by thinking of my own death--whenever that may come. That way I don't see my dad's death as somehow separating us but as uniting us. We are both going to die though it looks like he will be going before me. Anyway, your words of affection for your mom were beautiful and I think that people should do like you and embrace the death of loved ones and use it as an opportunity to celebrate the person's existence--how God made each of us separate, disticnt and infinitly precious. That is a great tribute and I was really lucky to find this post--especially now. I will pray for the repose of your mom's soul and for you all.

Thanks Norky, that hit me pretty deep man, thanks. I am so sorry to hear about your father. It is the hardest thing to know that a person you love is going to die. See we all know that we will eventually die, but we just put it on the "back burners." NEver really think about it happening to us. Well when someone close to you dies thn you look at life as, I can die in 5 minutes!. Well thats whats happening to me. It's not that bad but I hate realizeing that I could die, just the most horrible thought ever. Norky thanks for praying for me, I mean I am a complete stranger and you are showing that for me, thanks. I will also be praying for your father and for your family through this difficult time. My hats off to you Norky, for being such a kind person, same goes for the rest of you. Thanks so much and see you on TT!

You should have put chapter titles

Deepest regrets Ozzy. I lost my mom to cancer too. It gets easier with time. Keep your chin up -- she'd want it that way.

@ Goth Y?
@ 44 I am sorry man. How old were you when she died? Time always helps. Thanks man. I will keep up my chin forever!

My mom died in 1998 and I had to ask her did she want to live or die and she squeezed my hand
to let me know she wanted to die....so I understand losing a parent too.. I also am to young to be without my mom